The nature of healing
It is becoming increasingly understood that
psychological involvement is an important part of the physical
healing process. The molecular mechanisms of this relationship are
beginning to be determined.
It is my opinion is that any part of the body that
is the site of repressed memories of trauma, cannot be serviced
properly by the immune system. The author Louise L. Hay writes with
an awareness of this, though from a very different perspective than
myself. Quite simply, the mind does not allow recognition of the
trauma and its physical consequences. Therefore, the part of the
healing process that is dependent on mental direction for its
success, does not take place, and the wound or damage does not heal
properly. Such sites are party to chronic inflammation, cancer and
degradative illnesses, even auto immunity. Inflammation and immune
functions associated with auto immune diseases are able to access and
act on sites without the assistance of the nervous system. This
reasoning is the basis of my approach to the damage I have discovered
in my own body, and my understanding of its inability to heal.
My spine is significantly damaged (sublaxation). I
have problems with neck pain, a kink adjacent to the bottom of my
shoulder blades, and some degradation in my lower spine. These
problems, which I believe are the results of damage, are exacerbated
by the poor posture associated with what I can only call 'victim
I have memories associated with my lower and middle spine.
Indirectly, my memories of being anally raped suggest the possibility
that this could be associated with the physical trauma of repetitive
strain. My visualization of my father-figure intentionally damaging
my spine over his knee leads me to suspect this is responsible for
the kink I have in the middle of my back. I have documented the
damage to my spine by visiting chiropractors, and getting x-rays. I
recommend collecting documentation.
Maintenance of good posture in recent times has led to the beginning
of healing in my back. As I began this soon after recalling the
memory of my father-figure damaging my back, I cannot say how much
each is associated with my back's healing. Despite this progress, I
still have difficulty sitting in the one position for longer than 10
minutes. I have to move regularly, even if only a little, so that my
spine does not stay in the same position, or it begins to
In my early twenties I began orthodontic treatment
because my teeth met so poorly that it was difficult to bite. After
having my teeth neatly lined up, surgery corrected the fact that my
upper and lower teeth did not meet properly, and my teeth would
allegedly not maintain their alignment. I suspect that the problems I
had with my teeth and jaw development may relate to repressed
memories of trauma relating to oral rape.
In order to suppress emotional anguish, I overeat,
especially with sweets, cane sugar being the most effective, and
damaging. The resulting discomfort seems to 'distract' my emotional
energy. For many years I suffered from regular diarrhea, interspersed
with constipation: This was associated with my habit of unknown
origin where I would force myself to not go to the toilet to
defecate, but held it in for many hours first. The pain associated
with this seemed to give me a great but confusing sense of
I also have some indications that I have some liver damage.
pathological testing indicated the presence of an enzyme at levels
that indicate possible liver (hepatic) cell death. For many years my
liver had been sensitive to the application of external pressure.
This was alleviated by doing a few liver cleanses, where I expelled
hundreds of pea-sized (on average) and colored cholesterol 'stones'
from my liver (the precursors of calcified gall stones). The liver
cleanses also alleviated the severity of my allergy reactions, just
as the information at The Gateway to Health site claimed
I have a lot of allergies. The exact mechanism of
their development still allude me, but their nature suggests the role
of trauma. Some of my allergies are to substances that were in my
'mother's' cooking. For as long as I can remember I ate my 'mothers'
cooking with the suspicion that she may poison me at any time. Yet I
was too afraid to give away my suspicions. Other allergies relate to
substances associated with my 'father' and the garage - molds and
dust associated with garages and dried up oil products. Others relate
to family barbecues and camping - burnt wood, mineral oil products
and gas vapors. Another significant one is to tobacco smoke - my
My most noticeable allergies are dandruff and skin
flaking. These relate to most vegetable oils. I have two separate
reactions, that affect different parts of my skin in different ways -
one moist and weepy, the other dry and flaky - much less itchy. Yeast
and it's extracts also cause the more severe of the two
My reactions to smoke and vapor allergens relate mostly to my
adenoids, the immune sensors at the back of the nasal cavity.
All my reactions result in a temporary exhaustion that may last up to
an hour after starting. This is an indication that my immune system
is active, and is similar to the exhaustion experienced with a viral
infection. Being exposed to an allergen leads to my being exhausted
and unable to rise easily the next morning, as well as needing an
extra 3 to 4 hours sleep.
As well as liver cleanses, my allergies are
alleviated significantly by consuming fresh coriander herb. This herb
contains chemicals that via chelation cause heavy metals to be
excreted in the urine, such as mercury and lead. Such heavy metals
are also implicated in allergies, multiple sclerosis and
fibromyalgia, amongst other diseases. unfortunately, I have a mouth
full of amalgam/mercury fillings, that are quite degraded.
Probably the most significant factor in the
improvement of my health, other than crying, is the restriction of my
diet and substances I am allergic to. I believe that the secret to a
healthy diet is not only what good things you put in, but what bad
things you leave out. Also important is to keep your pipes clean, so
to speak. Much of what i know about good health has come from the
site called The Gateway to
Health (and theres nothing for sale).
It is sad to say, but the only assistance I have
received from medical health professionals is documentation, x-rays
and pathology results. Essentially, they know almost nothing about
health or how to maintain it. Yet they are experts at profitably
Visiting the chiropractors was useful for understanding what was
wrong with my spine, and some blood tests ordered by a couple of
doctors proved to contain some useful information.
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