A few years ago, I was a skeptic, and a
good one. I could think of a scientific alternative explanation for
just about anything. I was even dubious about the big bang, and other
examples of the new "Physics-think". What's changed? Nothing really,
except my interpretation of what scientific is.
What a cop-out, you say. Well, no. I've simply
shaken the chains of ignorance and unscientific narrow mindedness
that conventional science placed on my mind via 'education'.
What I now concern myself with is the scientific
method. This sets me apart from most scientists, who really are
operating well outside the boundaries of this way of thinking.
Hang on, you say, this page is about spirituality,
what's all this scientific stuff got to do with it?
Ok, here goes...
The scientific method demands that spiritual
claims be investigated as possible phenomena.
The scientific method is about logic. It states
that you cannot prove a negative, amongst other things. This means
that you cannot prove that spiritual entities do not exist. You
cannot prove that God, souls, psychic powers, clairvoyance, etc., do
Ouch, goes the biggest part of scientific
community. Well, in recent years, I've learned that when scientists
say these things dont exist, not only are they being unscientific,
but they are being just plain ignorant. I can assure you they kid
themselves that a lot of things don't happen, and just plain dont
think about things that can't be denied any longer.
Why am I going on about science so much when this
page is about spirituality? Because I am laying out my journey from
being a skeptic, to a 'scientist'. You'll have to put up with me
maintaining the science point of view, I dont really have
Some phenomena that doesnt fit with
When I started to heal, one of the things I
realized was that I kept having relationships with people like my
mother. So, how did I manage to achieve this? How did I know? I
realized that I was actually only attracted to people like my mother.
It wasn't what they looked like, there was quite a lot of variety. I
was just attracted to certain people, and others not. It didnt matter
who was hitting on who.
What mattered, as far as I am now concerned, was
that these partners were all "multiples", having multiple and
separated consciousnesses. Can you tell this about someone within the
realms of the five senses? I dont think so. Not instantly,
What about x-rays, to change the subject? Why is
it then when I had x-rays done, I could feel the buzz of it?
Especially when I had my spine x-rayed.
And what about deja-vu. What about the time I was
riding up the hill to home, and thought about something that may
happen when i was almost there. Then it actually happened about one
minute later, in such incredible detail that chance is a completely
I don't want to go into more examples, because
I've covered what I want to.
Am I just a piece of meat supported by a
I think about these experiences I have, and it
makes me wonder. I really used to believe for many years that was
just a piece of meat, that there was no higher entity or
consciousness of any kind, no life after death or continuation of
consciousness. But then I keep having these experiences that tell me
that this way of looking at things just isnt enough to explain the
way things are.
Am I crazy, am I really experiencing these things
that suggest I cant be just a piece of meat? Fortunately, there is an
enormous amount of literature where people tell about it happening to
them also. So I don't feel crazy for having these experiences. But I
don't want to go around just believing others' interpretations and
conclusions either. I have to work it out for myself - as usual. I
don't trust what others have worked out. No surprise really,
considering the crap I've been fed so far in my life.
No, there is more, isn't there?
Well, I believe there is more, but what? I'm
pretty convinced that my spine is an aerial and I with it I can sense
what others are feeling, their mood, what kind of person they are. To
me it makes sense that this is possible, even likely.
I look into the eyes of animals and I get a sense
of what their existence is like, a flood of awareness that comes only
when our eyes meet. This happens when I look into another humans eyes
also. But to do this with a bird is special, the feeling is so
different. Not like most ground animals, who dont feel much different
than humans. I can understand why ancient peoples put such importance
on the mystical significance of birds. That the ancient Egyptians
symbolized wisdom with the eye pattern of a falcon (eye of horus) -
after my experiences with birds, I can easily accept their
But clairvoyance, knowing what decision to make,
whether to do something or not, without being able to know the
consequences. This is something else. To know the future beyond the
normal predictions based on past precedence. How does this work? I
have had enough experiences like this to question whether or not
there is a higher source of information, of understanding. But how
does it work? How is the connection made? Is my consciousness just a
part of the whole universe, am I not even separate? Are my fragmented
consciousnesses (MPD/DID) only possible because consciousness can be
separated first into individual creatures?
So there you have it, an explanation of my current
spirituality: I havent decided.
Some of the spiritual things I
First of all, I have to introduce you to some
basic spiritual jargon. Smooth, and sharp. That's all, nothing
complex. Smooth is relaxing, calm, happy, that sort of thing. Sharp
is erratic, anxious, angry. Yep, you've got it now. I'll just
describe a couple of examples.
To stimulate my 6th sense, I like to get out into
nature. Nature is smooth. Nature helps me get from sharp to smooth.
Living in my daily life, My nervous system gets full of
electromagnetic knots and eddies and blockages - sharp. Nature
radiates smooth, regular electromagnetic fields. Just to walk through
it helps smooth out my energy.
Trees are great. Let me tell you about trees.
Trees and plants are sugar beings. Cellulose, wood fiber, is a sugar,
in fact glucose in long chains. Plants are mostly glucose! Big trees
are special. they hold up a giant column of water, into the sky. The
bigger the column of water, the more energy required to hold it up,
the stronger the electromagnetic field associated with the water
column. The bigger the tree, the stronger the smoothing power. Big
trees hum. The column of water has a frequency at which it resonates.
I can't hear the hum, but I can feel it. I can feel it vibrate loose
the sharp bits in my energy, the knots and blockages. So, there you
have it. I'm a tree hugger. Now you know why.
I also pay attention to the way I feel about other
people, the energy they are putting out. I do this sometimes just to
practice, to hone my sense. And to think about it consciously is to
develop my ability to understand the information my sense is sending
to my brain.
To stimulate my 7th sense, I try to use my
intuition. To do things when I feel like it, in the way I feel like
it. I will decide things on the spur of the moment, no matter how
trivial. Using this method has led me to experience some amazing
things, just by 'coincidence'. In fact I do this quite a lot, I enjoy
it. I enjoy the experiences and people that it brings into my life,
even if sometimes only briefly.
One example of this is choosing library books. I
have come across books that have been amazingly significant to me by
just following my feelings. I will walk around the library, and try
to let my intuition lead me to a book. I have not been disappointed
I also use my intuition with regard to my healing,
and how I go about it. Should I try something or not? I have settled
on using mostly my intuition in making these decisions.
Sometimes I decide the other way - by careful
consideration, weighing pros and cons, that sort of thing. Somehow it
often results in my life being made more of a struggle, whereas my
intuition leads me to less struggle. I cannot explain how this works.
Even with all my life experiences, I cannot know and understand so
much as to achieve this even subconsciously. With intuition,
decisions are instant, easy, and lead to good things, and greater
awareness. Using my awareness accelerates my healing, using reason
alone slows it down.
I avoid TV
I dont have one. Instead, I think. Its amazing all
the things you can work out when you dont watch TV. Its amazing how
much easier the world is to understand.